I took this picture as I was driving one evening. It was New Years Eve to be exact. I know it was a bit risky, but there was something about the sky that night. It was in the clouds, the sun setting, and it was my contemplative mood. Maybe it was in my contemplative mood that made the sky more beautiful than usual. Though still, when I look at this picture I am drawn to it.
When I was in my late teens and early twenties I would go for drives out in the country when my mind was weary. I remember some of the moments that led me to grab my keys and go. They were all moments that grew me as a person. Moments I wouldn’t want to relive, but also moments I wouldn’t want to take back.
Nowadays, with kids, seldom do I find solace in the car. I use it as a time to connect and reconnect. We talk sometimes about life and faith. I turn up the tunes and jam with my kids. I listen to them converse with each other. We play I Spy. It is fun. Peaceful? Not so much.
I no longer have the freedom to take off as I please. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss it. It is yet another sacrifice I am willing to make as a parent.
I will get my car rides back some day. The peace and quiet…the scenery will soothe my weary mind. I will think of my car rides with the boys. I will hear the loudness and feel the chaos in my mind. It will then be those car rides I miss.
Funny how fickle we are.