When it is my understanding of life and of God, which is constantly evolving, I want to be able to accurately reflect on where I came from and where I currently am. I constantly fight the urge to correct my misunderstandings by rewriting parts of my blog. I try to remind myself I will never, nor will anyone, ever know or understand everything fully about God.  We should all accept this and continue to search for deeper understanding.  Knowing my understanding of Him can always deepen is yet another proof of His love for us.  He always wants us to draw nearer to Him and nearer to Him we can always become.

My last post was, Peace only He can give.  I keep rereading it.  When I wrote it, it made sense.  Now though, there is an unsettling brewing inside of me over it.  “When I am given His peace I try to hold on to it for as long as possible…but it always eventually escapes my grip.”  Does it really escape my grip?  If He is always with me then His peace doesn’t ‘escape’ my grip.  The truth is I (in a sense) reject His peace, right?  His peace is always available to us.  So, those moments we don’t have His peace it is from outside forces that we allow to take His peace away.

I do realize I will not always feel his peace…I am human…but truly why do I not feel His peace all the time?  His peace is readily available.  This life has hardships and struggles and I will succumb to the effects of both.  Much of the issue is me trying to control situations. If I would immediately go to Him would I have more peace in this life?  Yes…absolutely.  Will that happen 100% of the time?  Nope.  But it is something to always work on.

Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

His peace is always there for us.