Today, I almost gave up. That’s it, you win. This is too hard. I am too nice. Kindness equals weakness! Defeating thoughts invaded my mind and I was on the brink of losing my hope. I wish I could say I prayed for peace, but at the moment I almost felt as though I wanted to be defeated. Sometimes it is easier to live for yourself. It is easier to be the smaller person and tell some one to shove it. It is easier to give in to negative thoughts and people.
I almost gave up and gave in. But I did not. I decided to pray even though I didn’t want to. Soon I was desperately praying. My eyes were quickly reopened and the shining sun reminded me that spring is coming. Leaves will return and provide shade, flowers will bloom, and fresh air will revive me. All will be renewed.
Winter can only last so long. I really do love winter (life) but have moments it wears me down. I long for the peace of what is to come and that is why I will continue to fight for my faith, even when I don’t feel like it.