There are moments when I feel too ordinary, but it never lasts long because I have reminders all around me. I had a moment this weekend, but my husband quickly pulled me out. He told me I was an extraordinary mother. I believe I am. I sacrifice a lot for my children and am happy to do so. He also told me I am a writer. I have a hard time with this title. I usually call myself a person who loves to write…but I write enough that I should feel confident to say I am a writer. So yes, I am a writer.
Despite my moments of doubt, which are usually few and far between, I feel as though I have more purpose now than ever before in my life. I am a stay at home mom and I feel I have more purpose now than when I worked as a nurse. It is funny to me. When I was younger, I would have never imagined being a stay at home mom.
I am truly blessed not to have to juggle work and home life. I do not not worry about someone else raising my kids. I think it shows. My kids are confident, secure little guys. I am not in any way knocking people who have to work…and there are children in daycare who are just as confident and secure as my kids are. But to me, the peace of mind I have in giving them the head start I want them to have is beautiful.
Like I said, I am blessed to be able to do so.
Our family life is very traditional…my husband works, I take care of the kids and keep the house up. It works for us. There are no blurred lines, things run smoothly because of it. My husband and I are equal, we just have different responsibilities. I am not ashamed to say––I strive to be a Proverbs 31 type of lady. At the end of my life, I will have less regret if I follow this path…
Proverbs 31:10-31
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Maybe my life is what many would call ordinary. But to me it is anything but ordinary.
Through the Stillness 