I’ll start tomorrow. I know in my life I have said those words many times. But––what if tomorrow didn’t come? As of late, I feel this type of urgency in my life. For a long time I told myself, Later. I will go back to Christ later. I was living my own life and was surrounded by unbelievers or people who believed on their own terms…it rubbed off on me. I was selfish and it resulted in an emptiness I never want to feel again. Personally, I knew better. I grew up in a christian family. I was taught to live my life through the words of the bible. Some of the remnants of guilt continue to eat away at me but I remind myself my sins have been forgiven and I feel the Holy Spirit working in my life like never before.
At my grandma’s funeral I felt the Holy spirit stronger than I have in a very long time. The urgency and child like faith was revived. Then, in my own church I heard, “It’s later than you think.” If we all remind ourselves of that, how much more would we be doing to grow our faith and use the gifts God gave us? And––How spot on was that for how I have been feeling in my own life? God is working in my life through many channels and it is beautiful and amazing. Have you noticed though, that Satan steps up his game during these times as well? Which recently, I finished a bible study at church called Twisting the Truth, it was about how Satan works in our lives––so I was prepared. Although, I’ve tripped a couple times, I keep getting back up (haha Satan, you can’t fool me for long). In all seriousness, I pray my urgency does not falter. This is where I am at right now. I am in three bible studies, but I want to find my place in church. I just don’t know where that is at yet. I am praying and following His lead to find my gift and use it for His will. 1 Peter 4:10 “Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.” (NIV)